GRRRR! i am so madd today!

< okay so on the way to my bus i passed matt and julie... they werent talking to eachother but as soon as they got to matts bus they started like making out.. it was sick (the julie factor anyways)>

< so back to my story... I hat it though because  like i know for a fact that she doesnt really LIKE him... shes just going out with him to say she " has a boyfriend" ....>

< well, not for long... it pisses me off so much... i think i want to get rid of her... FOR GOOD! ... i could try and find a way to break them up, or i could just strangle her in her sleep... which one do you like better?>

< anyways... im gonna go do some stuff... heres a poll... should i stop smoking or what? >

Wishing, wanting, and needing...

XsarahX

GRRRR! i am so madd today!

< okay so on the way to my bus i passed matt and julie... they werent talking to eachother but as soon as they got to matts bus they started like making out.. it was sick (the julie factor anyways)>

< so back to my story... I hat it though because  like i know for a fact that she doesnt really LIKE him... shes just going out with him to say she " has a boyfriend" ....>

< well, not for long... it pisses me off so much... i think i want to get rid of her... FOR GOOD! ... i could try and find a way to break them up, or i could just strangle her in her sleep... which one do you like better?>

< anyways... im gonna go do some stuff... heres a poll... should i stop smoking or what? >

Wishing, wanting, and needing...

XsarahX

i need to feel again... i want the pain to go away so badly... so ... i cut... If you have a problem with that, then leave me the hell alone...

all i want is a boy... not just any boy... that boy... Matt is that boy... i have never liked someone like this before... I truely love him with all of my heart... but it sucks so fucking much that he doesnt know... and i cant tell him.... it hurts...

all i need... is a true friend... someone whos there for me when i need help...who cares when im hurt... who i can laugh with about the stupidest little things but inside it feels like the most hilarious thing in the world... someone who is layal... someone i can trust... someone whom i can tell my inner-most secrets too and trust them not to tell anyone... thats all i need... i wish i could have somehting like that... but i cant... because i am unlikable...

all i wish for... is that i can have a family... not a couple of old people who just happen to have made you...but people who love you...care for you... and are there for you when you're not having a good day at all... My family is my razor blade... it meets all of those reqirements... but i have never told anyone before... because its to painful to tell the truth...

Thats about all... i will write later and remember... I'll keep wanting, needing, and wishing... until i die...

X sarah X